When Incest Fucks with Your Sexuality


This touched me in a way unimaginable. It helped me realize my confusion going through college, sleeping with everyone and anyone made me feel like I had control over the situation, That I was pushed into a life of sexuality far too early and it left me confused and but lonely. I often felt like I was an outsider, a weirdo. Im glad to be finding some support in others stories. This was a very brave blog to write and truly hit home. I realized it still effects me now, my relationship with my husband. I know it effects him now too. That I push away, I don’t like to be touched, kissed even hugged sometimes. I need it to be on my terms. Just like in college. I had the choice then. I could be with someone or not. Walk away or stay there. I often leave my husband confused, I feel like he is hurt when I push him away and this helped me realize that. That I am still dealing with incest in my relationship. Not just with my families unwillingness to talk about anything related.

I Will Stand For You

So what happens to your sexuality when you’ve been introduced to adult sex as a child?  Reactions vary, but it’s true that unless one is a very well-adjusted person, incest does a great deal of damage not only to the mind, but to the soul, spirit, and certainly, sexuality.

I started masturbating at a very early age.  It was a “good” touch that made me feel fantastic.  My body worked well, despite what was happening to me, and around me.  I read adult books and magazines well in advance of my age, and I used some erotic stories to get me off.  I didn’t question it much at the time, as a child, but when I grew into an adult awareness, it was disturbing  to me to realize that I was very attracted to reading incest porn, and erotic stories where the female protagonist was forced, coerced, messed with when…

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